Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Joy




I think I am growing into my role as a mother. To be honest, it has been very emotionally challenging for me in a lot of ways to be a full time mom. I am noticing, though, that instead of feeling empty at the end of a day as a mom, I am feeling fulfilled and full of happiness more and more often. I think I am beginning to understand that this is my calling...this is what my Father in Heaven wants for me...there is no better way to use my abilities than this...these children are incredibly amazing and I am responsible for raising them. Of course I logically knew these things before. I'm not sure what exactly is different. All I know is that I am happy. I am full. I don't want anything different. I am changed in a good way. I love being a mother. Of course things aren't perfect and I don't feel this way all of the time, but I feel it more often and I am thankful for that.
Here's to hoping I don't change my mind after baby #4 arrives :) Kidding, of course.

5 comments:

Monica Hudson said...

Wow. In that simple paragraph you've spoken so much sense and peace to my heart. thank you. You are an amazing woman.

Mary said...

It is a beautiful journey of becoming, isn't it?

Elisa said...

I think I understand how you feel. It's challenging but SO worth it!

JP said...

What beautiful thoughts! I just love you...

carrie r. said...

Thanks for sharing these insights. I have felt this way also... like being a mom is much harder than I ever dreamed, and there are even a few days I don't enjoy it very much (because the selfish side of me still wants time for ME), and then there are the days where I consider my progress and how I also feel increasing joy in just being with and loving my children, and I know God must be shaping me. It is easy to fall in to the trap of thinking that I am the only one who has struggled to find herself as a mother. So it is nice on occasion to hear from others who I consider amazing moms that it is a challenging journey for all of us, but a sweet one also.

I love all of the great photos and new posts on your blog! Your kids are beautiful. Good luck with the upcoming baby arrival. I love the name you have chosen. Hopefully the bed rest will help him stay inside a little longer!